I couldn't help myself getting up and doing something trivial just so I can live up to the hype of 12/12/12 as the day I DID SOMETHING!! So here – I’ll blog today and quit being lazy about it – just for today.
I’m not a fan of ‘celebrating’ every date that I may not see in my lifetime again or the days that will never come back – which by the way is every passing day of your life if you think about it so – why bother? Living in the moment is more understanble and practical. The pressure to make a mark or celebrate or do something special makes me queasy.
Hence, this morning when I woke up and saw pictures and messages asking if I had anything special planned for 12/12/12 – I thought I’d die of disappointment in myself at first, then shame for feeling that so very disappointed, then anger for feeling shameful and then the whole idea of dying so many deaths seemed unattractive altogether, also impossible so I just rolled over and decided to sulk the day out – until I remembered my blog!
I’d post a very nonsensical account today, make absolute no sense and then revisit it every December 12 for the rest of my life just to remind myself that YES! I too DID SOMETHING ON 12/12/12!
Seriously, how desperate is that?
Also I started using Google chrome. Finally after years of it just sitting there glaring at me from the task pane every time I’d hit the blue e with the yellow scarf. Why? Whyyyyyyyyyyyyy? I’m so much cooler and rainbow-y. Why must you choose that unreliable hung-over E!! I could almost hear my Chrome wail so I heeded and it’s nice. It corrects my spellings by underlining each wrong word in red, pretty much like MS Word does. I get a kick out of it going nuts over my Facebook comments :D
U r veeeeeeeeeeeeeraaaay naice!
Yeah, I just gave G-chrome a heart attack right there.
And I have a lunch date with my husband’s friends today (yeah it’s not as much fun as it sounds – he’ll be there too!). Then, I need to take a round of my own street and stuff my adorable postcards in all the mailboxes there. These postcards are special because they’re actually more like oversized business cards that talk about the book: Aoife and Demon. I just thought it would be nice to put one in each of the ten – fifteen houses, with holidays around the corner and who knows – I may get a sales boost! And while I’m at it I may actually get to meet my neighbors for the first time since I moved in this neighborhood ;)
Uhm…and the temperature is freezing. I hate it. I did have a goodnight’s sleep on my new orthopedic extra expensive bed though. And if anyone tells me what I’m feeling about sleeping well on it is psychotic, I will get upset! So don’t even try. For what it’s worth I have resumed my night reading ever since I bought this thing. I like to fluff up my pillows and lay back with a book in my hand and feel rested. It may have something to do with the fact that alongside the mattress I also allowed myself to buy an entire Echo bed ensemble from Bed, Bath & Beyond. Two standard shams, a queen sheet set, a comforter cover and two decorative pillows plus one large 20x20 inch toss pillow with embroidery, glitter and peacock colors from Pier 1 to tie in the entire look. I know it sounds frivolous but believe me, it feels so good!
A new bed needs a new bed ensemble. That’s the rule. Like every date needs a new dress. Especially, if you’re married. Every time my husband wants to take me out, I check my closet. If I have something I agree with, good. If I don’t, I go buy. And it doesn't have to be clothes necessarily. Once I didn't have the right shoes. Another time I was bored with the handbag I usually carried. It varies with whatever rocks your day.
And no consequential guilt trips please, I am very, very averse to those. I just shut and haul my good sense away at such times when I know I need to indulge or I’ll regret it later. And I do regret later, it’s not a myth. I have this adorable friend and we go out shopping at times to our favorite store and whenever I’m in doubt I look at her and she says to me, “Will you regret leaving it or will you regret buying it? Think about the later.” Solves all my problems right there!
And if you realize, this is actually very good advice since it can fit into any real life situation.
For instance, I regret looking at young people on the street and thinking Target Market or not Target Market. And I’m talking about target market for my books; lest you had other ideas floating around in that nice head of yours. But this is absolutely true and turning into a sore habit that I need to be rid of. This past November when the temperature were still a humane 60 to 70, I was stuck in my daughter’s after-school carpool line and I saw a group of teen-aged girls (16 years or so), about fifteen of them, sitting by the pond sketching and painting ducks and geese. My instant thought was – they should read my book.
I know. I’m shaking my head at me too. Their teacher noticed me staring at them and smiled and waved. The girls followed her gaze and did the same. I reciprocated and we shared a lovely moment in time of being nice to strangers.
They must’ve thought I was enjoying how freely they sat and looked happy and I was doing that, too. I really was fascinated by the brilliance and rawness of their artwork and the fact that they were still of that age when time stood still for you. You have the power to direct it, ignore it, use it and tease it. I was young once and I remembered it just then and that made me smile. But yes…I did drool over them for a bit, casting them as my potential target market for a good five minutes before they discovered me.
Oh well, we all have our moments and I seem to have quite a few of them everyday J Today is no different either. Which means that 12/12/12 is no different than any other day – it is just as brilliantly bright and crazily cold (as most winter days are) and it is 10:30 in the morning and I haven’t had my breakfast yet (as always) and I think I want a cup of tea to really start my 12/12/12 officially.
Take care people. And go and do something special to make this last repetitive date memorable for you!